Time Rhythm and Inertia

I have been giving some thought to why it is that I don’t do the things that I most want to do. In front of me are my art supplies, languages, computer ... why don’t I engage? My excuse at school is that there “is no time.” But that is no longer valid.

I have come to the realisation that time exists. I often think back to Costa Rica where there was so much time and wish that I was once again in that context. I usually have these thoughts when I look at my messy room that I come back to only to sleep for a short seven hours and then leave again. According to my nostalgia if I was in Costa Rica my room would be clean, I would study all matter of things that I wanted to study and go on hikes, visit people and pray. But in fact I have time enough now and yet it is still hard to clean my room, study those subjects that I now “have the time for” and do a whole host of other activities that there is no time for in school. The only thing that is holding me back is my lack of discipline, or not so negatively, my lack of rhythm.

So time exists, and that is not the problem.

There is something about having a morning routine. There is something about waking up in the morning and knowing the first thing that needs to be done and doing it. It is like setting the rhythm for the day. I think liturgy had that effect. I would wake up and say the liturgy and for some reason, even if I hated saying the words (because I felt that there was so much more to be doing) yet if I did not say them my day would fall into pieces.