Sunday Evening with Kim

I spent Sunday evening with Kim. It is perhaps the closest I have ever felt to her. Kim was talking about how she was frustrated with being here and only learning theory while there is a constant pull to action in the world.

That morning while I was riding home on the bus from Church, which was very remarkable in itself, I began to think about my love for Kim. I felt a bit ridiculous, but I began to wonder what love made Ruth turn to Naomi and say '“Where you go I will go. Your God will be my God and your people my people."” I wondered if it were only for daughters in law to say that because there is a question on whether I can say this to Kim. I let the thought go unanswered and thought the majority of people, and even myself, would think me tragic not having a life of my own.

While she was talking about how she longs for Uzbekistan shslippeded in a little "“you could come with me"” half joke half real. I took up the later and began to explain my thought on the bus. To my great delight she was just as excited as I was at the idea. Who knows where it will take us. But it exists. After this we went for a walk.

One of the clearest memories was the walk we went on. Down the bridal path acrossross the river. We talked about this and that until we came back to Prov. Not quite ready to go back we sat on "“the hill"” which is a lovely little sitting spot which overlooks the not-so-eloquent Rat River”. There we sat and watched the stars. I remember lying down and she began to chant these words:

Turn your ear
to heaven
and hear
the noise inside

The sound of angels and

The sound of angels songs and

all this for a king

we could join and sing
all to Christ the King..

how constant how divine:
This song of ours will rise...

The words fit so well. I know she did not feel that her voice was the most beautiful, but at that moment it was jusbecause becuase it fitted exactly the time and place. Â"All this for a King..."

It is still an odd thought for me. I do not fear now being co-dependeexistedam exicted to suspect that our friendship has some potential to go somewhere that I have hearabouthing aobut. It makes one wonder at the nature of friendship. I love Kim so much and am devoted to so many of the same goals.

The next day in “Men Women and Society the class was on friendship. I was surprised because it fit so well with what I had just been thinking about. The idea that I am wondering about is how it is possible that friendship is the goal of human intimacy as opposed to the assumption that marriage is. And one of the big challenges that I face in our friendship is the stigma of being homosexual. What is homosexuality? Perhaps it is the assumption that all love is best expressed in Eros.