A. Small, Mass of Confusion

“Every woman I’ve ever met feels it--something deeper than just the sense of failing at what she does. I am not enough and I am too much at the same time. Not pretty enough, not thin enough, not kind enough, not gracious enough, not disciplined enough, But too emotional, too needy, too sensitive, too strong, too opinionated, too messy. The result is Shame, the universal companion of women. It haunts us nipping at our heels, feeding on our deepest fear that we will end up abandoned and alone. “

I feel that this is a perfect little synopsis of what I feel is wrong with women. It is from the book “Captivating” by the same authors who wrote “Wild at Heart”. The introduction begins:

" Now we are on holy ground.
Writing a book for men (Wild at Heart) was a fairly straightforward proposition. Not that men are simpletons. But they are the less complicated of the two genders trying to navigate love and life together. Both men and women know this to be true. The mystery of the feminine heart was meant to be a good thing, by the way. A source of joy. Yet it has become a sense of shame. they feel that they are “too much” and “not what they should be”.

I have avoided this book fearing that it will be another “popular Christian” book which feels more like pornography than real food for my mind. Like Thomas Kinkade. So I pick it up as a last sort of desperate attempt to try and find some answers to what feels like chaos inside of me trying to understand what it wrong.
However I am surprised, and pleasantly so, to find that the book not only moves me very deeply, but also provides my mind with good food to help solve this riddle.